Im Back

Its been a while since i have been on here. lately i have been wanting to just write but my penmenship sucks so i dont like using pen and paper! thats just me! :) but anyways, lately things in my life have turned around. some for the good and some for the bad i guess you can say. ive become a hard person. give or take. i dont really feel any sort of emotion. i recently was at a funeral for a family friend who i have known my whole life it seems like. and while i was at this funeral service i could not feel any sort of sadness. i wanted to cry. i wanted to mourn but i couldnt. i dont know what it is. its been like this for a while now. ever since my grandmother passed away in 2005 or 2006 i havent been the same emotionally. i do have a heart. i do cry but for stupid things. like girls. i mean WHY should i cry over a girl?? it makes no sense to me! in my 21 years of life i have had crushes on plenty of girls. girls out of my league. girls that i just thought were chill and cool. but there have only been 2 girls i have ever fell in love with. denise was my neighbor for like 4 years and i consider her my best friend. she was perfect. i loved her. she never broke my heart in the sense of being together and us breaking up. she was the one that got away. my fault. and then alyssa came along. this girl got the best of me. i mean she really got the best of me. i spent so much time chasing her. i actually thought i had a chance. i was chasing the wind. and i never caught it. it was a roller coaster with her. i mean up and down ! it was hard. for 4 years of my life i chased this girl! 4 years of chasing for nothing. this is the only girl ive ever cried over. and because of her i dont get close to girls. i dont chase. i loved her and got my heart broken! but i think everyone needs to experience heartbreak. but thats just me. back to the point (if there is one) i find it hard to cry. at times when i should cry i dont and times when i shouldnt i do. as time goes on i pray God softens my heart. and i know He will. i will be writing hopefully every week and have some topics. thanks for reading whoever you. its much appreciated. Zac

p.s. if alyssa reads this im sorry hahah

First Official Blog Of Me...

My full name is Zachary Randall Hernandez. I was born February 6, 1990. In Covina, California. I am single i do not have a girlfriend. I was raised in the church my whole life. My parents were and still are Huge factors to my home church. So because of them i was always at church doing stuff for my church. I never really got into much trouble when i was younger. In middle school (junior high) I was the class clown i would always be messing around so that i guess you can say got me into trouble just a little but though. High school was super fun for me. I was again labeled the class clown. Im just a fun and funny guy. I did though meet some pretty cool people in high school and i also met some pretty bad influencing people. In the 10th grade or YEAR 10 I met some guys who influenced me in not such good ways. I got involved in illegal graffiti and became a member of one Los Angeles' biggest tagging crews. I have never been convicted of any type of crime. I have never been caught by the police. Its mostly because whenever i would tag i would feel the conviction after i would tag a spot. so i never hit up to many places but i did get my name up and recognized. In my tagging career i guess you would say i was in about 5 to about 8 different crews big and small. In the summer of my junior year i received a prophecy at a youth conference and so after that happened i sort of tried to change but when school came around those influences came around and i got back into tagging all over again, I never got out of my crew i just didnt tag for them but then i went back to school and i started hitting up spots and just doing things i shouldnt have been doing. I never got into drinking or smoking just because i was into hardcore music and the straight edge scene so i never smoked or drank. My junior year i went through the whole graffiti phase and in the summer of my senior year i went on a small missions trip and on the last day is when God really broke me down and really spoke to my life and from that moment i broke down cried and felt the conviction all over me. i went and called my mom and told her that i was a tagger and that i had been tagging and was in a tagging crew. she was mad but understood. from that moment i have never done illegal graffiti. i got out of my massive crew and stopped hanging out with all those people who had dragged me into all that stuff. So when my senior year came around i got involved with my studies and got involved with different clubs. i became the activities planner for my christian club at school. i completely gave up illegal graffiti. But when i was in my senior year i started a LEGAL graffiti crew. me and some of my church friends do it to glorify God and to be able to show off our gifts. I named the crew COS which stands for so many different things....CHRIST OUR SAVIOURCHRIST OVER SATANCASTIN OUT SINCREATIN OUTRAGEOUS STYLESCLEANSE OUR SOULSCLAIMED OUR SALVATIONCANT OUT STYLENow i am at Hillsong in australia doing what God wants me to do. So yeah thats a little about me and my testimony. I am pretty much open to anything so if you have any questions feel free to ask me. I love telling people things about me i guess you could say. So yeah... Thats it... God Bless...